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I was wearing a new top and ring from my new sponsor, Queenbee Shop. 

I can't describe anything about today. I'm feeling happy and also bored and sad. I'm feeling happy because I'm officially an aunt from my sister's son. My sister gave birth yesterday :D. I'm feeling sad because I haven't seen my nephew because my sister gave birth in Jakarta and I can't go to Jakarta because of SCHOOL. T_T

My parents and sister went to Jakarta last Wednesday, and actually all of us thought my sister's son would born in mid October, not September 30th. So... I think my parents will stay longer in Jakarta than the actual plan, which means I'll be moreeee bored at home. I feel weird when my parents aren't home.. Usually there are a lot of noises at home, my mom's screams and shouts at me, but now.. my house is really quiet! I even don't know what to eat for breakfast / lunch / dinner. I miss my  moom's home-made food :(. Almost everyday I eat McDonalds, KFC, etc. uh... those are junkss! I don't even watch television this week :"(. Luckily this week I still had fun with my friends, my friends picked me up and we went to have dinner together for twice. 

I always hope to continue my high school in Jakarta / Semarang, so that I'll be free from my mom's nags, but I don't think I'm independent enough . I can't imagine when I'm sick, there aren't my parents with me, when I'm hungry and I don't know what to eat. While now, I never think what'll I eat, because when I'm home my mom has prepared my lunch . But the way to make myself independent is... to live by myself without my parents. I think that way..But I don't think I'm ready for it. 

It's Saturday and I'm not going anywhere. My driver went home before 6pm. 2 of my best friends also went back to their homes today (they don't live in Tegal, always go back on Saturday) . so I couldn't go anywhere . :[ . I should learn to drive!! But I'm only 14.. and not tall enough -,- .

I rent some dvds yesterday (I'm to lazy to go to the mall to buy fake dvds) and it seems like I picked some wrong films. Geezzzz. I rent 5 dvds, I tried to watch 2 of them , none of them was good. I only played 10mins and I already got bored and I changed it with another one.. The best film was Wild Child.. That's my all time favorite film.. Alex Pettyfer was really handsome there. I'll never get bored watching Wild Child :'>

and.... here is my cute nephew, Jayden Skylar Hu.

If you're following my twitter, you must have seen these photos. I love him so much and really can't wait to see him. :D

Anyway, Baby J and me have a same thing in common, both of us born on 30th ! Although we're born in different month, but still... he has to be as cheerful and as 'smart' as me . huehehehe B-). I'm gonna be his best auntie !! *I wanna munch his cheeks*

HAVE A NICE WEEKEND , EVERYONE!!

2PM - I Can't