i hate flash back-ing bad memories. but i don't know why, i just want to share you one of my bad memories.hahaha. it's about friendship . ( i discused about this with kak anita, ci lalita, and ci bella last night). let the story begins...
i have a very close bestfriend since we're on the 1st grade of elementary school. okay, call her A. we went to mall together, played in my house everysunday, called each other everyday,etc. but, it ended hurtly.
day by day... she got new friend... somehow, i never angry if she got a new friend, i thought we can play together then. but... she leaved me and just played with her new bestfriend. it was really hurt my heart. then.. her new best friend telled me if A mocked me behind me, A said i'm annoying, etc. I cried all day, i texted her and asked her looooonggggg questions why she did it to me?? I didn't want to answer her calls, sms, even she called my house phone number and telled to my maid if she apologized to me. then, I forgave her and said to A "if there's something that you don't like from me, just tell me, then I'll change my bad attitude. it's better than you talked and mocked me behing me. let's be honest. we're best friend for years, is that hard to tell our secret to our bestfriend?". then we kept our friendship...
unconsciously, it happened AGAIN. i was really angry to her, but she didn't want to apologize to me too... so, we didn't talk to each others for 3 months. i was find my new bestfriends...and she apologized to me again.... then I forgave her again -__-, but we're not as close as in the past... I felt not comfy and not match anymore with her, we ended our best friendship, but we just a friend now.. for me, it's hard to trust again with a person that makes me hurt for twice. people say : trust is like a glass,once it is broken, it can never be perfect again. Few months later.... i knowed from my classmates if she fought with her new best friend.. hahaha... and A's new bestfriend looked like didn't want to be her bestfriend anymore. she was alone, but I didn't care. until now, she just follow her friends to everywhere like 'penguntit'. so sad, but I DON'T CARE. hahaha. *ssshhh don't hate her Veren...*
fyi : we're friends and not enemies! just not close... :P.
the end. =_=.
remember,
1. friendship is sharing openly, laughing often, trusting always, and caring deeply :)
2. Be careful what you say. Friendship can end in one minute becos of a stupid word
3. there are 1000 friends come when we're laughing, but maybe, there's just ONE friend that come when we're crying!
now... I'm enjoy with my new friends, although I don't want to have too close friends anymore.. I blabber all my secrets on my blog... this blog is my best friend forever anyway, hahahhaa...
it's me and my friends when we were in the 6th grade of elementary school. sorry about the stupid faces :P.
okay, it's up to you want to read that long paragraphs or skip it and see my pictures, lol.
i went to jakarta few days ago, I left my camera on my apartment, my dad will bring it tomorrow. so... i'll post my day off pictures soon... and these photos below captured by my old camera. :(.